Tired and Busy

I just woke up around 1pm and I'm running on about 4 hours of sleep right now. I got home verrrrrry late lastnight and I didn't sleep til I finally got home. Talk about a long night! I met some very random people. They were nice guys and girls and I hadn't planned on doing so, but its not a bad thing. I'm glad I met them. Not that I really need to know more people in Joplin, but ah well, its all good. I have so much I've got to get done today before I leave my parents and head back up to Springfield. The day isn't wasted too much yet, but if I hadn't gotten home so late I could've woken up earlier today and got a running start to everything. I'm just not going to sweat it. Everything will pan out just fine.

So here's what I have realized over the last 2 days - I still have feelings for this guy. I can't exactly say why or how, but I do. I don't know if its worth it or not, but there is something about him that intrigues me like no other guy has. He looks nothing like the guy I typically go for, in fact he's near polar opposite and thats moderately strange for me, but I don't know what I'm to do about it. We kind of brought up our past and discussed it a bit. We somewhat have the same viewed feelings in a way, but from that I don't know what I'm supposed to think. I can sound really pathetic about it, but I refuse. I just think its amazing how a guy can grow so much, in a more benefiting way, (for me that is) since high school. I wish I could figure out why I feel this way, but there is something tugging at my heart strings - or atleast what's left of them and its making me think. I don't know if the moment this morning was something? It certainly seemed like it, but it could possibly only be nothing.