Why Try

I'm still trying to figure out why I try to befriend someone. They make it out that I'm this terrible person, or so it seems to me, but I'm not that awful and its very upsetting. I try to make good with him, but I still get crap for everything! I try to be nice and check up on him cause he got in a bike wreck lastweek, but even when I ask how he was doing I basically got told that I didn't care. Ok...so you're saying you don't want me to ask about you? See how you've been? How you feel? Cause I mean if thats what you want, you can certainly have that. I'm just trying to be "friends" with you since thats what you said I needed to do. But you're making it rather difficult for me to even try when you keep cutting me down. Maybe I SHOULD stop talking to you. You bring me nothing but misery and frustration. I still to this day don't understand how I used you and took you for granted. I never asked for anything. I never said I wanted anything. I never said you had to do anything. You did it all on your own free will, in your own leisure. I should not be the one to blame for your actions. I did appreciate the things you did, but I shouldn't get bitched out by you whenever I do/say something that displeases you. Its not my fault I didn't like you beyond friendship. You can't control how you feel. Plus buying me things didn't get you any closer to me. I'm not materialistic. I am just who I am. Take me or leave me. Your choice, but I can't do this anymore. You drag me down and I'm worth so much more.

I'm going to smile because I deserve to.